What a week...I feel a little overwhelmed

Dear Family,

A small chunch of what i wrote to my mission presidente this week:

What a week! I feel a little overwhelmed. I dont know if you knew but i get really worried and stressed every time i am asked to give a training. I thought i would blow up from stress our first zone meeting, but then i got through it. And then when we were asked to give a mini training last missionary leadership council... i also thought i would blow up and i got through it. And now we must give a full training this months leadership council... i think i am actually going to blow up. But i guess i will get through it. haha i think Heavenly Father just kind of laughs at how he is stretching us to our limits and helps us grow. He had a great sense of humor this week with all the things that went wrong. But we made it through. I loved conference. It was a great way to remember how simple and purê the gospel is! I got to remember to simplify. And also really feel the strength of the spirit in my life. I love the gift of the Holy Ghost. I am so grateful for the companionship of the holy ghost. because also this week i felt like i got reminded of some little things i have done in the past and i got all worried and stressed about how imperfect i am and how i may not be worthy. I talked with sister zimbelman about these feelings and she gave amazing advice and counsel. What a blessing it is to have companions and also how truly divinely chosen they are. She helped me understand the atonement even more clearly in my life. She said how if we repent our sins they are not going to go half away. Even if our sins be as dark as Scarlet they should be as White as snow. There is not pink people... what a blessing it is to have repentance. i am so grateful for the atonement and so blessed to use it. i have Always felt the spirit in my mission and i know that even though satan at times tries to make us feel as if we are unworthy my heavenly father has forgiven my sins. I love repentance and i see now that it is a process and a blessing! We should not feel scared or discouraged about repentance but truly aleiviated and blessed to be able to participate in this essential process that My Savior made possible.

that is the miracle of the week.

I felt like i should share that experience with my loved ones. Repentance brings joy.

But things really did go interesting this week. i wouldnt say completely wrong... but interesting. So first.

Monday-- Miracles. We were getting my hair done and it didnt go as fast as we had hoped but we still reached our goal for the day and saw people being put in our path.

Tuesday--We get asked to give training in leadership council on how to begin teaching. We laughed pretty hard throughout the day because our goal for the month is to develop knowledge. Heavenly father took that into account and we see what happens. We thought about changing our goal after that but we will continue with Faith and courage to develop this atribute. haha.

Wednesday-- We had a great meeting with the zone leaders and the district leaders about some goals we want to set for next month in our zone. The month of october is going to be a great month! We are focusing on teaching people not lessons. I love this principle. It is a constant goal of all of us but this month we will learn some new tricks!

Thursday-- We had a great division... I ran to the beach with one of the sisters and ran back. it was great and difficult. But beautiful! The sister i did divisions with is in her 2nd transfer and doing a great job. she is getting the language down and setting goals like a boss!

Friday--Great day.. cant remember what happened.

Saturday-- Conference! We get asked to do a interview with the public relations coordinator of Cabo Verde! And we have some great people at conference and made some great cookies.

Sunday-- We get punished for making the cookies on saturday because we ran out of gás on sunday.... right in the middle of making the noodles for our awesome tuna caserole... so what do we do... we grab everything in our kitchen and we make our way to the others sisters house and make our food there which makes us late for everything but thats ok because we still happen to make it in time for conference!!!! And we do that interview with the lady and take modeling fotos of us teaching investigators on the street and all sorts of great things. i will let you all know if i ever see the article... it will be in portuguese but maybe i will send it to you.

We have a investiagator who has a bar. she is doing really well and seeking to find a desire to get baptized. right now she is super worried. because of a catholic Family. but we are seeing that she is changing. she also started looking for another job so that she does not have to work in a bar! the gospel changes people! I hope she can find a job. we are praying super hard and hoping she will also find a way to go back to school! Our investigators have so much potential... they just have so many problems as well. But we are trying to find a way to help them see that as week keep the commandments we are blessed beyond measure!! Thanks for all your stories on keeping commandments. Super powerful. I cried. I love you all and keep striving! I learned in conference about how we are truly needed to be better! We need to be seeking exaltation! I love you all

Tchao..

Sister Johnson